This is worse than I thought it was gonna be. I have been using vicodins to help, and I've decided to use weed as an apatite stimulant. I don't smoke it regularly. It tends make me lazy. But since I look like this and feel even worse, I don't imagine I'll be going anywhere. So I'm gonna take a couple hits so I can eat something.
Time: 3:17
Stomach is in knots, head is feeling a little light.
Shaking a bit too. Its been almost a day and a half since my last dose and I miss it already. I haven't cleaned out my needles and caps yet. I need to throw them away. Its hard but I'm gonna do it when I have more strength. So far my phone has only rang once or twice. Funny how the minute people realize I won't have any heroin to share with them, they loose all concern about my wellbeing. So I've been alone all day. Seems I may have to get used to that. Because when you have only yourself, in this condition, to offer someone else, that's when you truly see that you always were alone.
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