Holding it down

As the day wore on my resolve wore thin. Not so much so that I gave in but it did instill trepidation. I'm very scared that I won't be able to do this and I'll end up disappointed and disappointing the maybe 3 people who give a fuck. But I'm doing okay right now. Unless some dramatic happens between now and the morning I'll write more in the morning.
8:03 pm
Took some vicodins and smoked two hits of pot. Finished a plate of spaghetti.